Hitting Rock Bottom

Dannah Gresh: Sarah Walton found herself often home alone, bearing the weight of a son with mental challenges.

Sarah Walton: We were not doing normal marriage, we were not doing normal parenting. We were just surviving, completely surviving! So we didn’t have the energy to even acknowledge what might be going on under the surface.

Dannah: Today, hope for marriages going through life’s storms. This is Revive Our Hearts with Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth, author of Choosing Gratitude, for June 17, 2020. I’m Dannah Gresh.

Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth: The Bible has a lot to say about storms. A few weeks ago I shared with you a passage that’s been my go-to passage throughout the recent months of the COVID-19 and some other storms taking place in our nation.

Psalm 29, verse 10 says, “The Lord sits enthroned over the flood.” Psalm 29 is all about storms, floods, life-altering circumstances and situations. There have been a lot of storms in our world, in our country, and in many of our lives in recent months.

People have experienced trying circumstances in relation to their income, their health and, for a season, their ability to get out and about. And sadly, these storms have taken a serious toll on many marriages. 

I understand that in some parts of the world, there has been a serious spike in divorces as a result of the coronavirus pandemic. The shelter at home orders that much of the world has been under has caused unresolved issues to come to the surface, and maybe you understand that on a deeply personal level.

Suffice it to say, whether it’s in 2020 or in any year, every marriage is going to be hit by storms at some point. Today we’re going to hear from a couple who have been deluged with some serious storms in their marriage.

These are storms that would have capsized many a person, but I’ve watched my friends Sarah and Jeff Walton weather these storms through the power of God’s Word and the presence of Jesus in the boat with them.

Sarah and Jeff Walton have written a book called Together Through the Storms: Biblical Encouragements for Your Marriage When Life Hurts. I had the privilege of endorsing this book. I think it’s a terrific tool, a great resource for couples to read together when they’re going through storms—or maybe before they go through storms in their marriage—that can cause their marriage to come out stronger on the other side, rather than being capsized.

Recently, my co-host Dannah sat down with Jeff and Sarah Walton to talk about their book.

Dannah: Welcome to the program, Sarah and Jeff!

Sarah and Jeff Walton: Thank you for having us, Dannah. 

Dannah: I just saw some wedding pictures of the two of you . . . cute, adorable! Take us to that day. What do you remember about your wedding day?

Sarah: Oh, my goodness, it feels like yesterday, and it feels like fifty years ago. 

Dannah: How many years was it?

Sarah: It was sixteen years ago this July, which is so hard to believe, but so much happens in that amount of time. We were pretty young. I had just turned twenty; Jeff was almost twenty-four. A lot of people weren’t sure I should be getting married yet because I was younger and I hadn’t finished school.

And so, there were definitely people who thought, Why is she getting married already? But it was a very, very clear direction of the Lord, not one I would have thought I would have taken, but it was clearly the right thing.

I just remember us both being so ready to embark on life. I think we had been wanting to be married for that past two years since we had met. It was just such a day of rejoicing that we had finally reached that point. We were so excited to finally be able to start life as we had been waiting to do.

It was just a beautiful day. It was sunny; it was like seventy-eight degrees outside, and everything felt like, “This was exactly what I had hoped for and planned for.”

Dannah: Jeff, tell us what that bride of yours looked like on that day.

Jeff: Oh, that is one memory that I will never forget! That was one of the things that caught my eye when I saw her first at school. When we look at just the wedding day and our excitement for that, there is nothing that can replace that first time that you see her walking down the aisle!

We were ready to get married and certainly excited for our journey ahead, at a young age.

Dannah: And so, what dreams did you have that day? Do you remember dreams for what your careers would look like, what kind of family you would have, how many children? Did you have some of that in the back of your mind?

Jeff: Yes, I think naturally we had some dreams. We both came from families of three, so that was kind of the general, “Well, we’ll have at least three, maybe four children, Lord willing.”

I think just as we were trying to get settled in, dreams of what we were looking for in marriage—all the highs.

You don’t think about, naturally, any of those challenges, so you’re just focused on starting to build your life together. We were in a small apartment . . .

Sarah: . . .with every rodent under the sun!

Jeff: The simple things of being in a 700 square-foot apartment for a couple of years. Those were some sweet years, looking back. So at that point, we were off to a good start.

Sarah: I had gone through some pretty rough couple of high school years my last two years before I met Jeff, and the Lord had really completely redirected my life right before I met him. And so, those first couple years of our marriage were actually very healing years for me.

I think I had this picture, “That was my hard time. Now the Lord is just blessing me. We are just on this awesome journey, and I’m so excited to see what lies ahead!” I think I had a little bit of rose-colored glasses at that point. I thought, We were both following the Lord; we loved each other, and only good seemed like it could lie ahead.

Dannah: That’s what we all think on our wedding day and those first few years: there won’t be any challenges! Certainly the things our parents faced wouldn’t happen to us! But when we make our vows, we take one another “for better or for worse.” When did you realize that there would be some “worse”? What was the first real storm you encountered?

Sarah: Yes, I think we both would say that’s pretty clear. The first couple of years you have normal rubbing up against each other, challenges of figuring out how to live together, things like that.

I had my first child when we had been married for three years. I had had a pretty rough delivery, and so we had been at home the whole time since our son had been born. All the sudden one day, he spiked a really high fever for a newborn. I think it was 102.5 or something.

We didn’t know what was happening. We had nothing to compare it to, but our pediatrician was very concerned, so he was rushed to a children’s hospital. Long story short, they did a spinal tap on him. They were very concerned! We were suddenly faced with this terrifying reality that we could lose him.

They didn’t know what was wrong, but they knew he had a very severe infection . . . from what, we didn’t know. We ended up being there for five days. It was our third anniversary. I remember we sat in the hospital; we slept there every night.

It was our first realization that following the Lord doesn’t mean we’re going to be protected from everything. Ironically, we had dedicated him to the Lord with the prayer that Hannah prayed: “For this child I prayed; therefore also I have lent him to the Lord” (1 Sam. 1:27–28).

All of the sudden we were faced with this question, “Do we really mean that? Do we really mean I am willing to lend him to the Lord, in the sense that he is the Lord’s, if that means He takes him?” That was really hard to ask when you’re new in parenting, you’re thrilled, you’re so excited, and then suddenly you’re faced with this totally opposite reality.

That was the first time I think that we were put to the test of how we both would respond to that. I think we both were a little bit in shock that whole time. It was interesting. I think it was neat to see us wrestle with that right away.

They were really hard questions to ask! We ended up leaving the hospital with no answers. They knew he had a very bad infection. They had antibiotics that ended up eventually seeming to reverse what was happening, but that was kind of the beginning of the rest of the trials from there.

Dannah: I can remember a time when one of my children was having severe stomach pains for years with no diagnosis, and that is a painful thing to walk through! When you don’t have answers, the trials seem to be just so much more frightening sometimes.

So you journey on from that first storm and you find a solution and everything goes perfectly from then on out: “They lived happily ever after!”

Sarah: Yes, that’s why we’re here, right!? 

Dannah: No . . .

Jeff: Yeah, I don’t think we’d have a book if that were the case. But God had a bigger plan, didn’t He?

Dannah: More storms followed. What were those?

Jeff: Yes, I think probably the next major storm was really the chunk of years—maybe the next nine years—that was really where our marriage was tested due to my employment being on call.

And without kind of getting into that too much, just the stress and the homelife that we had with our oldest who has neurological challenges and mental health disorders that we still don’t have answers to.

There were a lot of struggles in the home from physical and just the verbal that Sarah had to deal with. . .

Dannah: . . . from your first son.

Jeff: Yes, correct, from our oldest son. With my work, I was in and out and on call, and that put a ton of strain on our marriage for Sarah to deal with that and not to be able to count on me. And so what that really drew out was . . .

During those times we didn’t attack each other in our outbursts, because I think we were in survival mode. So much was just focused on, “How are we going to survive taking care of this child?” And, this is our oldest, so we don’t know how to parent—just like everyone else with their first child. 

You’re trying to learn on the go, and now you have all these other challenges pressing up against you. At that time about every two-and-a-half to three years we were able to have another child and so. We have four children today.

As those children were added to our family, the stress and the pain of our first child and his struggles continued to manifest itself differently in our family life. I think that was a big storm of how that affected our day-to-day. Ultimately that was growing and we were sweeping that under the rug just to survive, but these things we had to deal with down the road.

Dannah: I’m getting a picture here of what possibly could be, from a woman’s perspective, a husband who has a career outside the home, he’s on call, he’s successful. And I’m here with a child with some very unique needs and challenges. Did you feel lonely, Sarah?

Sarah: Uh, yes, to say the least! And I think it would have been lonely had I had normal situations at home, but because he was in and out, it got worse and worse. There were a lot of Sundays I’d go to church myself. We drove two cars everywhere we went so he would be able to leave at the drop of a hat.

We would go to a birthday dinner for me, and he’d have to leave halfway through, and I’d go home and take the take-out food back home with me. I knew that was our life, but it takes a toll, just because I was on my own so much. 

I basically had to be in the mindset of single parenting, and that’s hard emotionally for a woman, to have her husband leave, and then to come back and not know if he’s going to stay. I couldn’t turn my emotions on and off like that, so I became very guarded.

Not only that, but I had to be guarded at home because they were very scary situations day after day after day [with my son]. I don’t think we can mentally and emotionally manage that for long without just shutting ourselves down.

Dannah: Could you take us to one of those scary moments and what that looked like in your house?

Sarah: Yes, without getting too detailed, for his protection, most days would mean I would be restraining him for a good portion of the time. He would lose the ability to control himself, and words and actions would come out of him that were just not him anymore.

Really, that started when he was a toddler, but I think it got the hardest probably when he was four, five, six, and seven. He was stronger, he was old enough to do more. I would be in these long restraining battles with him where I would either have to restrain him physically because I couldn’t keep him contained anywhere for his safety or for my safety.

In doing that I was often getting hurt, because he was getting stronger. So I would kind of shut down emotionally. I would just plug away and do what I needed to do, do the best I could to control my own emotions in those moments. Yet, I would leave those and I would be so physically and emotionally drained!

And by the time he would come around, I would just have to leave the room until he was ready to come out. And he would. He’d come out and say, “Mommy, can I have a snack?” And I would have the emotions in me where I just wanted to run! I didn’t know how to even respond. 

Here this was, my little boy, who didn’t even remember half of what had happened. He couldn’t even tell me what had just happened because his memory had just shut off during that episode.

Dannah: And at this point, you still don’t have a clear diagnosis or understanding of why this is happening.

Sarah: No! We had gone, I would say, to ten different doctors at this point—all different kinds. Most of them could tell us something was wrong; they could see there were neurological challenges, they could see different aspects of his behavior that were clearly not normal, but nobody could tell us why.

What was actually more frustrating was, we would show up at the doctor’s office, and the doctor would say, “He’s such a great kid!” 

And we would just, “Uuhh!” We didn’t know what to do with it, because no one could see what we were seeing. And so, as parents you start thinking, What’s wrong with us!? What did we do wrong? Because obviously no one else sees what is happening!”

And so that became harder and harder—especially because I was bearing the majority of the weight in that. But even when Jeff was home, that was our life! So we were not doing normal marriage; we were not doing normal parenting. We were just surviving, completely surviving! We didn’t have the energy to even acknowledge what might be going on under the surface.

Dannah: So, Jeff, when Sarah is struggling with feeling lonely, feeling like she’s kind of in this a little bit alone and growing a little bit resentful, what is happening in your heart?

Jeff: I know a lot of that was the nature of my work. I was an orthopedic trauma consultant and on call 24/7. At a moment’s notice I was getting pages by the surgeons to come in and help from that standpoint of consulting in the operating room. So that in and out created a lot of these challenges.

I think where I was viewing this was, I was trying to be the provider. I was trying to go to work and bring back the paycheck and to be loyal to the surgeons and to be able to be someone that they could rely on. The way that this played out was it created a lot of miscommunication between me and Sarah. . .

I thought I was doing something that was honorable, trying to work hard for our family. She saw it as, “To what cost? Is there any scenario where you would say ‘no’ to a doctor when he calls you to come into one of these surgeries?” So I was also up against that.

Had I said, “No, I can’t make it to your surgery,” these surgeons that I worked with, the loyalty really was on thin ice. So if I turned away that specific business, there would be ramifications from that, and I would potentially lose their business on other cases where they would call me.

So that’s what I was wrestling with: “I’m trying to keep and to do well at my job and to provide.” I saw that as something I just needed to go and do, but at the cost at which Sarah was dealing with it at home. Was it going to take an ER visit? Was it going to take just that she was bedridden because of her sickness and other things that were going on and then the challenges with our son? 

At what point would I say, “I’m going to stay home?” And so, without understanding the whole nine years and my mindset with that, it’s hard to explain in just that simple form that there were one or two points where I should have stayed home.

That spoke volumes, by me walking out. Those are things that unravelled over the years to come, that we swept under the rug. Again, just in that survival mode, but those hurt her deeply. At the time I didn’t see that. At the time I thought I was doing what was best for our family, but ultimately, I was hurting that one that I loved the most!

Dannah: Wow, so what did you do about it?

Jeff: Honestly, throughout those nine years not much changed. I think we were just trying to live the day-to-day. That job ran its course, where ultimately when we were getting up to nine years, I knew I needed to really change jobs for the health of our family.

It tore at me not being able to lead my family to church every Sunday. It seemed that was growing more and more where surgeons were scheduling cases on Sundays and just having me come into work. That was one of the big indicators of seeing what it was doing to Sarah, and then also to our kids. 

I was not leading them first and foremost to church and making that a priority. That was a hard decision, because I knew that we had to make drastic choices. But I felt like the Lord was leading us there. But at what point would I be able to say, “Alright, I’m looking for another job, and I need to turn away?” 

I had been in a job that was really pay well. We were trying to be good stewards of that money. We just had moved into our dream home part way through those nine years. I thought we were slowly building up and doing well and thought we were in our forever home.

But really, just the desperation of our family and some wise counsel that we got from a pastor friend . . .

Sarah: Can I actually tell you what he said?

Jeff: Sure.

Sarah: We were pretty much at rock-bottom on multiple levels. I was extremely sick myself. We were close to admitting our son. I was dealing with chronic illness, but our son was to the point where we were not sure we could keep him in our home anymore. For any parent who has ever wrestled with that decision, it’s about as close as you can get to ripping your heart out!

And at the same time, Jeff and I were seeing that this couldn’t be sustained like this. We had some pastors come over to our house who knew us well and we had a lot of respect for. I remember one of them just knows how to shoot straight to the point. He looked right at Jeff and said, “Dude, I would rather flip hamburgers and save my family than be in your position!”

I think we both had already had our hearts being stirred in that direction, but we knew the cost was going to be so great. We knew we were going to have to walk away from our home. We knew we were going to have to sell it, that we would be losing a very large portion of our income.

We knew that we really couldn’t know what was going to come beyond that, but I think the Lord allowed us to get very much pinned up against a wall, in a sense, because we needed to have no other choice.

Dannah: So you walked away from your dream home and a lucrative—by all the world’s standards—successful career to save your son and your family.

Jeff: Yes, and that was taking a step of faith that we knew that we had to make.

Sarah: Yes, we did. That's what I think was a grace of God—we both knew it at the same time, because I couldn’t have made that decision. I knew that was going to have to be something that had to be done in Jeff’s heart. 

I could see that the Lord had already prepared his heart. Because for a man to walk away from something he had done, and done really well and identified with . . . He looked very successful from the world’s standpoint. Doctors respected him. He was an incredibly hard worker, and he did well at what he did!

To walk away from that, there were no other great options. It was purely, “I have to take whatever the Lord opens up.” I remember even when he was interviewing, the company that looked like the best opportunity . . . They actually brought another person in to interview him because they were so skeptical that he was there for the right reasons, because he was taking about a 70 percent pay cut. So they brought in an outside party, because they thought he was being dishonest about something. Nobody in their right mind would do this! 

And yet, at that point the Lord made it so clear that the cost was clearly worth it, despite not knowing what was going to come after that.

Dannah: So, Jeff, tell me. You’re still obviously very emotional about that time in your life and the decisions you made. What was that like for you to make that choice?

Jeff: We are in the storm still. So there are just things that bring up a lot of raw emotion in me at the drop of a hat. I can’t explain that. And so, even some of these stories as we go through recalling, pictures can just come into my mind of what our family life was like. 

There are so few people that have a glimpse into that, because 99 percent of that is in our home. So when we’re out in public, it’s something that’s seen dramatically different—it’s the most confusing thing!

As I was making that decision for work and trying to take the step of faith and hearing where God was leading us . . . I think from a man’s perspective, you’re trying to grow in your career. I was trying to have a healthy balance to that. 

But now needing to make a choice where I was actually going to reverse and go backwards just because I wasn’t able to make any lateral move . . . I tried some different things, and just the way the Lord led me to my next opportunity, it was a significant step back.

For the health of our family, you can’t put on a price tag. I’m so grateful for God’s grace to give me the ability to see that and not be so . . . He was tearing down probably just subtly the pride that’s in me and the things that I wanted to continue to enjoy, some of the earthly things that came from that. 

But knowing that was not going to be worth seeing the way that Sarah could not go on. It was a “Y” in the road where, “Am I going to choose to love my wife that I committed to and to lead my family in a way that I so desired? or Am I going to just choose to enjoy the job that I’m in and continue to separate from Sarah?”

I think that would have gone down the path of splitting up. I don’t think we could have survived that. That lifestyle was very fruitful at the start and some good things, but just not producing anything in the end. 

Walking away from that, looking back on that, just God’s grace to be able to step out and make that choice, not anything I could do in my own strength. I’m just thankful for wise men around us, our pastors, just the body of Christ to support us and pray with us through that.

Dannah: How long was that decision making process for the two of you? Was it an immediate decision?

Jeff: Towards the end of my time with that company, I had tried to get out within maybe even a year of that. I had looked at other opportunities that would be more lateral and just everything seemed to get a roadblock. I was not able to make a more lateral transition, so it just became more and more desperate.

I felt like all the things we were doing for our son, trying to get answers and trying to get help from doctors . . . We were going to doctors who were out of network and everything was just out of pocket. We had nothing that seemed to be covered by insurance because of the specialists that we went to.

And so our bank account was starting to drain as well, our savings, and just the pressure . . . It came to a point where, I guess, we needed to decide, “Can we continue to move forward and stay here?” One, the health, and also, just from a standpoint of where things were heading even just with our son continuing to go unknown with diagnosis and his health conditions continuing to spiral down.

It wasn’t an immediate couple of weeks, or even a couple of months; it was a little period of time—maybe a year—where we tried to change and we got roadblock after roadblock. I think that pastor friend of ours had said, “You need to make this decision; I think that would be wise!”

Then we started to see God open up more doors with interviews and then that led to a job not too far down the road from that.

Sarah: I think the difference was, “We needed to realize we had to be willing to make greater sacrifices than we were initially willing to make.” We were trying to make a lateral move, and the Lord made it clear time after time that that was not happening. And so, it meant the only options available were either: don’t change or lose a lot! Neither looked good, but we reached that point where we realized, “We don’t have a choice anymore.”

Dannah: Yes.

Sarah: So that was a pretty quick decision. We talked with the pastors, and I think we did put our house on the market in a couple weeks. 

Dannah: Okay, all of us can identify with maybe not the exact same storms in our marriage, but storms. Because of the mistakes we’ve made in responding to our spouses, you probably know that you did some things wrong, right?

You’re grieving, you’re hurting, your first child is struggling. Your family life doesn’t look the way you thought it would, your finances are falling apart; you’re losing a dream house and a dream job. What, Jeff, did Sarah do right during that time that maybe we can learn from and follow in her example?

Jeff: Yes, that’s a good question.

Dannah: What is something that encouraged you?

Jeff: We were, as we have mentioned, kind of in the survival mode. I think one of the things that probably encouraged me the most (it wasn’t anything that was even spoken to me) was to see that she was continually getting into God’s Word.

I think for me to know that, we may have not had the best communication . . . Our relationship on the outside was pretty good at that point, it was just a lot of internal stuff that we were struggling with and unspoken issues that just weren’t coming up. 

So from that standpoint, we may not have been as vulnerable and open in our communication, yet we both were going back to the Lord individually. To see that Sarah was continuing to commit to praying and reading God’s Word daily . . . and that’s the same thing that was on my heart . . .

We see God’s grace through those days, that He was really working in both of us, preparing and chiseling away at each of us, making us more like Him before we could ultimately come back and deal with our issues head-on. I think there was maybe some growing that we needed to do first before we could tackle the challenges that we were facing.

So I think from that standpoint, Sarah was not nagging me about changing a job. She was so gracious. Even though how hard that was for her, she was not lighting a fire underneath me to say, “You need to leave,” and sternly trying to direct me and put pressure on me. 

She really allowed me to have the space and prayed for me. She allowed me to see that through the wisdom of God speaking through His Word. I would say that is the biggest gift that Sarah’s given me: pray for your husband and don’t continue to hound him. Because as a man, if she did that, I would put up my wall. 

I would have wanted to put my arm out and keep her away and say, “You know what? I can do this my way!” It would have actually probably hardened me, and that would have probably raised more pride in my heart and would have continued to build our walls.

Because she responded in love, and because lovingly she was praying for me and she was seeking Christ above our marriage, then I think that was the greatest gift that she could give me in those moments.

Dannah: It reminds me of a verse my husband and I have held on tightly to in our storms, Ecclesiastes 4:12: “Though one may be overpowered . . . a cord of three strands cannot be easily broken” (NIV).

Sarah, as you chose to hang on, to cling to the Word of God,and both of you, it sounds like, leaned on God Himself, you were held together in a storm that could have ripped you apart! Sarah, what stands out to me is that you chose not to nag. That sounds really difficult to me! Was that hard for you?

Sarah: Oh, yes, it was. I think we need to be honest. I’m sure there were moments where I said things that . . .

Jeff: But God has removed those from my mind. 

Sarah: I knew I needed to communicate with him. I knew it was important for him to know where I was, as much as I could. The Lord really made it clear to me that this was too big for me to do anything about. 

What that did was it drove me more into dependence on Him. As painful as it felt, I felt somewhat of an abandonment from Jeff, the Lord really used that to show me that Jeff’s never going to be the one that’s going to save me. It taught me to look to the Lord for my comfort. 

It taught me to look to Him to be the One: “He’s the only one who is with me in that room when I’m with my son. He’s the only One who sees the pain that I have experienced. He’s the only One that can know the aftermath of that and how that’s affected me. He’s the only One who knows how it feels to have Jeff walk out the door knowing what I have on my plate that just doesn’t feel possible!” 

So I think I saw the Lord faithful time and time again in those moments, that it made me stop relying on Jeff so much and allowed me to somewhat entrust Him to the Lord’s hands, too.

It didn’t mean that it didn’t hurt. It didn’t mean there weren’t things we had to work through. But again, as Jeff said, I just see so much of the Lord’s grace to sustain us where we couldn’t sustain ourselves. It was not like we were the most wise people in the world. I just see, amazingly, the way the Lord directed our hearts to even be able to trust where we had no reason to trust, or to entrust each other to the Lord when we really maybe wanted to take control. 

I just am thankful that God knew what I needed to endure those years. Not only that, but He had it in His plan to restore what I really wanted!

I did desire our relationship, I desired healing, but I didn’t have a promise that that was going to happen. So it taught me: “Do I really trust that the Lord will be enough for me if our marriage never is restored or this is the life I live for the rest of my life?” And that was not always easy to answer, but the Lord held me up through His grace!

Nancy: What a great reminder from my friend Sarah Walton. She and her husband, Jeff, have been in a conversation with my co-host Dannah Gresh. Sarah was just expressing what Asaph said to the Lord in Psalm 73:25–26, 

Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail [and my marriage may go through some major storms, we could add, but this psalmist says,] God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. 

The book by Jeff and Sarah Walton is called: Together Through the Storms: Biblical Encouragements for Your Marriage When Life Hurts.

This is a book I believe every married couple needs to have in their home as a resource for present storms or storms yet to come. We’d love to send you a copy as our thank you when you support the ministry of Revive Our Hearts with a donation of any size. Just visit us at ReviveOurHearts.com, or call us at 1–800–569–5959, to make your donation.

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You know, storms come in a variety of shapes and sizes, including financial ones. That might be an issue for you or someone you love right now. Tomorrow we’ll hear how Jeff and Sarah Walton have weathered some major financial storms in their marriage and how they have found the Lord to be faithful in the midst of those storms! Please be back for Revive Our Hearts.

Pointing you to God, the strength of your heart, Revive Our Hearts with Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth is an outreach of Life Action Ministries. 

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